This is a deep look at being abandon by my mom (biowomb), growing up without sight and getting diagnosed with trigeminal neuralgia. Trigeminal neuralgia is often called the suicide disease because the pain is so bad. I share my experiences with TN while being a teenager attending school. We talk about the use of heavy opiates and how they caused major problems in my life. Along with this goes the aftermath of multiple surgeries to remove a few tumors and to reconstruct my skull. These events happened between age 2 through 16.